Are you Happy?

 

I generally consider myself a happy person. And when I’m not happy, it’s mostly because I worry about if I deserve that happiness and all of life’s blessings. I’m not sure this isn’t just my PMS talking, but I constantly have that unsettling feeling of guilt following me around. I did my research on my own tribe (hello, Millennials!) and I know that, according to book, we’re doomed to never be fully satisfied, but somehow I don’t buy it. I’m sorry, I just don’t. I may be raised to assume a happy ending to every story I hear, or I, by myself, have grown up to be that person – i don’t know. Fact is, I have a problem. So, let’s see, what is happiness? Is it a place? Is it some stage in life that you come to, look around and then go: “Oh, okay, this is fine. I’m happy now.” Or is it something hidden in a plain sight, right in front of your nose? Is it possible that happiness really is all around us (as is love, her big sister)? Is it possible that Wet Wet Wet (what a name!) was right all the time?!

 

Today I woke up with those questions on my mind. Those questions led to further questions: Am I doing my job well enough? Do I like who I am? Who am I? What do I want? Is it chocolate cake?

Two minutes later, I’m sitting there, eating my chocolate cake, feeling like a piece of shit and it all came to me – all at once. Paying bills, asking my parents for money more times than I’d like to admit, that one beggar on the street I refused to give money to, world peace and so on…

 

Luckily, my mom came to the rescue and took me for a ride. We always had this thing where we would just pick up something to eat and then go for a long drive to some nearby village or city just because. I used to love it when I was younger and I think I love it even more now that I’m a grownass adult. Today we went to a rose field near my hometown for some flower shopping. The guy who usually sells wasn’t there so we decided to hang a little and take some photos. Back in the car we had our mandatory karaoke session and right there between swinging an iPhone as a microphone and singing White Flag off key, I felt it. Happiness. 100% raw, vegan, cruelty-free happiness. Simple as that. As I sit here writing this couple of hours later, I can not help but wonder (easy, Bradshaw!) are we taking our happiness for granted assuming it will always be there, hiding among small things? I hope not. Me and my fairy-tale-loving self are going to try really hard not to ever underestimate the power of small things. I hope you do that too. And don’t worry, you’ll notice big things as they come. It’s that Dido song you loved ages ago that you often fail to notice and that’s just wrong. Don’t go down with that ship 😉 Smile and sing on top of your off key voice!

 

So, I’m asking you again. Are you happy?

Cause chances are, you are.

 

 

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Photography: Sandra Pecić // Ko To Tamo ; Marija Pecić // The Sad Bear

Location: Trstenik, Serbia

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